Well, hey guys! I'm back! Yeah, i know i should be having my good night sleep and be "freshed" to concentrate in my school, studies. But i just can't lie down on my bed to have my good night sleep. Even if i lie down on my bed, i just couldn't fall asleep. I kept having these "things" on my mind. Can't get rid of it no matter what! The more i think about it, the more sad i am. Sad doesn't really describe it. Erm.. *thinking* not in the mood lar, not really sad though, but also kinda pissed. I just want to get rid of these "thoughts" and don't think too much and focus on my studies as my exam is coming. But really no matter how hard i've tried, i just can't. It's like, kept in my "long term memory" in my brain. Honestly, it does effect a bit of my studies. I hate that way you've treated me. Is it i did something wrong or what? Why don't you tell me? or you're just too SHY?? *pissed* aargh~ sometimes, i hope you did "somethings", but you wouldn't. It's not i'm forcing you or anything, it's everyone that they should do to show that they care about you. But you just didn't. All you do is ditch me. Well, cannot really say ditch, erm.. don't really know how to explain but it's like you don't really care about me. Sometimes, i don't know what is on your mind. I really don't know what you feel towards me. These make me so damn freaking sad and kinda pissed. I just don't wanna show my sadness, because NOBODY will care. So might as well, keep my feelings to myself. I don't know what to say already. You don't want talk to me then, simple, i don't talk to you. If you're "ready" to talk to me, then i'm open. I'm always there for you, but i guess you don't know. Nevermind~ maybe you don't even care? Haiz~ Should i follow what my tuition friend suggest me to do? But i just couldn't do it. Ya, maybe it's just to give you a "warning" or anything but i couldn't do it on YOU. I'll feel damn freaking sad and you will be seeing me like a crazy old woman lost in the jungle. I don't know what to do. All i can do is look at you and wonder what is on your mind. Wonder what are you thinking. Wonder do you still treat me the way you should. I guess these are cannot be answered questions. I guess i need to go back to my old style and try my very best to focus on my studies. Maybe "these thoughts" will have to follow me unless everythings back to normal. P/s : i'm just gonna zip my mouth. =/ P/s 2 : i guess i just don't deserve people to be pity at me and nobody will. ='(