Sunway Lagoon with my babes ♥

Sorry for the late post guys. The last two days, i'm not really in the mood to blog but now, i cannot abandoned my blog cause i hate to left my blog to be dead for a long time. Okeyy, as i've said, that i'm going Sunway Lagoon with my babes, Jas and Cigie the post before this, so now, i'm gonna blog bout it. :) The night before, i couldn't really sleep, i guess is because i'm too excited and i'm not used to sleeping early. D: Next morning, woke up, on fb for awhile then bath and get prepared. Then, left at 10 went and ate breakfast with my mum and sis. I arrived at Sunway around 11 where as i should arrive there at 10. Sorry that i came late, babes. :( And of course, cam-whore in the car. ;) Sleep late every night causes dark circles to get worse. :( Me, looking at the view of nature out there and thinking of my special someone. :) The sun shines on ME! :D Me.. doing stupid face? HAHAA! xD Then, arrived and met Jas, her mum and sis and Cigie at Sunway Pyramid's parking. Walked together to Sunway Lagoon and my mum went and buy tickets for us, meanwhile me, Jas and Cigie chit-chat and cam-whore, of course. HAHA! :D Me and Cigie. Photo credits from Miss C. :) Me with Jas. Photo credits from Miss C. :) Bought tickets, went in Sunway and it's have fun time! :DD Went for Amusement, Wildlife and Wet Park. Amusement was FUN! Some games really scared the heart out of us! xD Kept screaming until our voice really lost. HAHAA! Wildlife was all bout animals. Saw animals, took pictures of them. I'm kinda lazy to upload those pictures, but if you guys wanna see, can go my fb and see. Though the image quality is not that good, cause i use my hp to take those pictures. :( Photo credits from Miss J (1). :) Photo credits from Miss C. :) Hehee. :D Then, we head for Water Park but before that, we changed to our swimsuits. ;) Photo credits from Miss C. :) This is me! Nice? Hehee. Photo credits from Miss C. :) My 2 sexy babess! :D And.. we head to Water Park! Had so much fun there! Screaming and laughing moments. Me, almost drown moments. HAHAA! xD When the time is already 5.30 pm, we have to leave and cleaned ourselves. :( After that, bought burgers to eat cause we're really hungry. While Jas and her sis went for their last ride at the roller coaster, the Sunway Lagoon's erm.. doll, sort of, came and we took pic with it. :D I know my legs look so fat in here. :( Photo credits from Miss C. :) Then, it was time for us to leave Sunway Lagoon. :( Say gooodbye, and hope we can meet again. :) Took last picture at there. Later on, walked back to the carpark and said "Goodbye" to Jas and hugged her. *sad* Really miss her. :( Then my mum will be bringing Cigie home so she went to the car with me. In the car, we keep on chit-chat bout.. a lot of stuffs, quietly. x) We did cam-whore also. Photo credits from Miss C. :) And sent Cigie back to home already, went back to my own home. On the way back home, refreshed back the things we've done together and hope we can have this kind of outing again. Maybe the next time, without sisters and parents. ;D ________________________________________ Is it because due to now is holiday and this is happening? I really dunno. Wish you could really tell me exactly what's on your mind. What's happening at your side there? Could you really have another one? Why do you do this so easily? I fall for you that easily and now you're gonna let it go? It hurts when you say those things. My heart hurts terribly when i knew you said those things. Thought you've changed, but you still said it. Ohh well, i love you just the way you are, so i'm just gonna accept the fact that you're like that, so if you really meant what you said before this, just.. accept me the way i am now. :) Those memories never leave my mind no matter how hard i've tried. I guess is because i know how much it hurts and i knew you'd never realize.

有些事情我也说不明白

Hi guys, i know i've abandoned my blog quite some time. Maybe is because i'm not in the mood? Yeah, i think so. *sigh* Anyways, last Saturday came back from Ipoh and nothing much to say bout when i'm there. Just really tired due to all those praying. In a day i need to like pray for 8-10 times. But is for the sake of my great-grandfather, so it's okeyy. When i'm there, well, thanks to YOU, i've been having my bad mood time. Never really thought it'll turn out this way. You seems like you've changed. You never treated me that way and you're making me more and more suspicious of what are you doing. The only happy thing that i had there is at 12 am on 19th of November, where i sent you a kinda long message saying things that i should say to you. Well, still got a lot more to tell you though. But didn't manage to write everything cause it was A LOT! And my mum was there and she was kinda suspicious who was i sms-ing with. That night, i couldn't sleep and i couldn't even stop smiling. My cousin slept next to me and she was giving me a kind of face like "are you crazy??" HAHAA! All on my mind was YOU and our 'fairytale'. Nothing else is on my mind, bothering me. That's the time i didn't worry bout our thing. That night i had one of the best sleep ever! Then, the next day turned out not so brilliant as i thought it will be. And until now, it's still the same. Kept wondering these answers for those questions. Trying to be strong here and day by day, with the help of my friends, i manage to be one. Now, i'm pretending to be like 'them' and enjoy at the meantime. It felt much more better honestly. Dun really have to worry bout anything and i got my FREEDOM! *smile* But still, trying to forget you is trying to remember someone that i've never met. I know it's hard to get rid of you from my mind. You NEVER leave my mind and guess you don't know bout that huh? Missing you terribly is the times i hate myself. Need you by my side is when you broke me down. Never thought we've gone till here. Thought i'm your experimental games? Dude, i'm a human just like you, k? Dun wanna be in my life? Then get out! Maybe you're not even welcome anymore. Puh-lease! Don't act like a spoiled brat, can ya? You respect me, i'll respect you. If you don't, then just get outta my life! Treating me that way is not a smart move you know? You're so smart right? How bout think of something else better to do then doing all these. Though i may not know whether is true or not, but just to let you know, to me i believe it's true with the way you're treating me right now. Wanna denied it, come and settle it with me once and for all. Dun want me appear in your life anymore? Just tell, you won't die. Maybe you'll have some tough times. That's all. :) Friday's gonna be a girls day out with my babes Jas and Cigie to Sunway Lagoon. Let's just say that i can't wait! *excited jumping* Miss them loads! ♥♥ :D Maybe on that day, i'm just gonna ENJOYYYYY! ;D

Back to Ipoh!

Okey, as you can see, my post title says that i'm going back to Ipoh due to my great-grandfather's sudden death. We received a call from our relatives which my great-grandfather was staying with, saying that he fainted. Then after a few minutes, received another call saying that he already passed away. So, i need to go back to Ipoh, where most of my relatives were born and where my great-grandfather grew up. Start my journey after i finished everything for our annual dinner performance till 1 pm tomorrow and will be back on either Saturday or Sunday. Ohh man, i will not be here on OUR special day to write bout EVERYTHING! Well, guess i just gonna have to write the post after a came back from Ipoh. Hmm, at least we still can sms. :) I'm gonna wish you first at 12 am, on 19th of November. ;D Okeyy. Nothing much to post. See you till the next post which maybe, i'll post bout what happened when i'm in Ipoh. Bye! *i love you* ♥ Countdown, 2 more days! ♥ I LOVE YOU! ♥♥

Countdown, 3 more days! ♥♥ Okey, i guess we're back to normal? Well, at least now we're texting like usual. At least, you replied my texts. :) Nothing much to say though, just happy. :D I don't wanna ask so much. If you wanna tell me what happened, i'm opened. You can tell me, but if you really don't want, i won't force you to. Remember, that i'm ALWAYS there for you. If you want me to change, i will, just for YOU. You're the reason that i keep going on. ;) Goodnight, my dear! Sweet dreams! *muahss* I ♥ You!

Never wanna lose you.

Well, still had the thing going on, still really don't know why. Just now chat with Miss Jasmine in fb and she asked me to call him. At first, i said "NO!" but then after awhile, i don't know how i got till there, i've already go to your contact number, press "Call" and i'm calling you! Man, i'm freaking out that time! It grew more and more when YOU answered the call. I never expect that you'll answer my call though. The conversation goes like this : Me : Hello? Him : Hello. Me : May i speak to ___? Him : Ya, this is ___. Me : ohh, erm.. am i bothering you? Him : No. Me : Ohh, erm.. wait ya. *freaking out* where are you now? Him : Home. Me : Ohh, erm.. *silence for a moment* Him : hello? Me : erm.. are you angry at me? Him : erm.. no. Me : erm.. what happened? Him : what happen?? Me : ya, what happened? Him : can i dun talk bout it? Me : ohh, erm.. *quiet* since nothing to say, bye bye lar. *quickly hangs up* shit! Well, that's our conversation overall. I called him again and he didn't pick up. I guess he's really angry at me bout something. Eventhough i don't know what i did that made you like this, but i really wanna tell you, "I'm sorry for whatever i've done that hurt you, i'm really sorry". I don't know what's happening in here, but i want you to know that i truly love you and never want to leave you. I don't know why my love for you is so deep, too deep. I love YOU, don't need reasons right? You're the only one in my mind right now. Eventhough the time is now is really late and i know i should be going to bed now, but, you're the reason i couldn't sleep. I kept looking at the phone, wishing you would call back, or even sms me, but i guess you wouldn't since you sound like you're angry at me. Kept looking at our picture while listening to some emotional songs and that made tears keep rolling down my face. Flashback to everything that we've been through. Happy and sad moments and a smile appeared on my face while tears is rolling down my cheek. Wonder we've been through a long and hard journey. We've been one till now and NOW i'm wondering, will all this memories have to be vanished? Will it really come to an end this time? Will all our time be wasted, just like that? A lot of questions is on my head, waiting to be answered. I know i've been really stupid before this, i know i'm such an idiot. I know what i've done is a very stupid thing, maybe you still haven't forgive me bout that. Maybe you still have those feelings in your heart. Maybe its NOT a maybe. Maybe it is! I know its too late to regret, i know i couldn't rewind time and change everything. I know i've never been perfect for you! Flashback to when we say "Forever and Always" and now i'm wondering, will that ever be true? Or we're just too blind to say that? Countdown 4 more days! I LOVE YOU! P/s : Leave me alone!

Story Of Us. :)

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us, How we met And the sparks flew instantly And people would say they're the lucky ones. I used to know my place was the spot next to you, Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on. Oh, a simple complication, Miscommunications lead to fallout, So many things that I wish you knew So many walls up that I can't break through, Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room And we're not speaking And I'm dyin' to know Is it killing you Like it's killing me? Yeah~ I don't know what to say since a twist of fate, when it all broke down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now. Next chapter. How'd we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy And you're doing your best to avoid me. I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us Of how I was losing my mind when I saw you here, But you held your pride like you should have held me, Oh I'm scared to see the ending why are we pretending this is nothing. I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how, I've never heard silence quite this loud. Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room And we're not speaking And I'm dying to know Is it killing you Like it's killing me? Yeah~ And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate, when it all broke down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now. This is looking like a contest Of who can act like they care less, But I liked it better when you were on my side. The battle's in your hands now, But I would lay my armor down If you said you'd rather love than fight. So many things that you wish I knew, But the story of us might be ending soon. Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room And we're not speaking And I'm dying to know Is it killing you Like it's killing me? Yeah~ And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate, when it all broke down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now Now, Now, Now. And were not speaking, And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me? Yeah~ And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate, cause we're going down. And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now. The End. Taylor Swift - Story Of Us from her newest album "Speak Now".

Countdown, 5 more days! ♥ Eventhough i don't know how will it goes till the day then, but i still wanna countdown and hope you'll see this. I want you to know that this relationship means a lot to me and i really don't want "unwanted" arguments anymore. If you really don't want me in your life anymore, just tell. I don't want to be the one whose always wrong. I never meant that i want always be the right person. I just want both of us to the right ones and the wrong ones. I know this sounds harsh, but this is really what i meant. Hope you'll understand. :) I LOVE YOU! ♥

An unforgettable day, thanks to you.

Ohhkayy. Holiday has been two days and i'm already complaining bout my boringness. Haiz~ Anyways, now i'm gonna post bout my last day at school in the year 2010. :) Firstly, i went to school as usual but i arrived later than Cigie and then, instead of going meeting, i went for fall-in and intersquad training. Before fall-in, gather at KH Block and BFA results were told out and guess what? I passed! :D so did Cigie. We were so relieved after that. ;) Later, perhimpunan and nilam time as usual. Then, teacher said that we are not allowed to go up to any level. We're only allowed to stay on ground floor. After that, i went for Prefect Farewell Party organized by teacher. The first Prefect Farewell Party organized by Junior Form 1 was a total failure so teacher decided to organized another one specially for us Form 2. :) After awhile, my class Jamuan were ready. So, went there, walked everywhere and snapped pictures as we go and ate McD. The pictures i've already uploaded at Facebook. If you're interested to see, you may go my Facebook profile and see my photos in the album "Last day of School, 2010. :)". I'm kinda lazy to upload those pictures. Then, i started emo-ing. Not to mention, Tomato was same too. As i'm emo-ing, few tears came rolling down my face and soon enough, i started crying. Well, i have to thank YOU for making my day like this. In addition, i know i'm gonna miss my friends. As usual, Jas was the one whose cheering us up. When people were leaving, as i was crying, out of the blue, Jas started crying too. Followed by Tomato and Cigie. My favourite part was, four of us were crying, hugged each other, wipe the tears from our face but still, the tears kept rolling down. At that very moment, i can feel the LOVE in our friendship. The care we cared for each other. The "miss you guys" moment. :'D We stopped crying as we walked out the school with our red and watery eyes. That time, my mind only has YOU. That day, you went back early and i didn't had the chance to say "goodbye" nor "i miss you" to you. I didn't had the chance to see you before you left with your mum because that time, i was crying. Finished school, snapped pictures with my friends with our "just cried face". Few friends were playing with Coke crazily. Finally, my mood was slightly better. Friends were going home one by one. Said goodbye to them. That day, i went back very late and witness something really shocked me. I was very scared till i didn't want to go tuition. Anyways, want to say thank you to Sing Yee for the present she gave me. I've saw it and honestly, it was touching, dunno why. :') I dun really know why you're like that now. I dunno what's happening in here, but i just wanna let you know that i love you. I only truly love you. You're the only one on my mind always and now, it is also. I never want to leave you and i hope you feel the same way too. If you're seeing this, please reply my sms or give me a call to let me know what's happening. I LOVE YOU! :)

Grandpa's 60th Birthday.

Okey, now i'm gonna post bout my grandpa's birthday. It was celebrated on 7th of November. Firstly, that day morning was my Re-BFA oral test too. Took my oral test and i guess i did it just fine. Then, came back, bath and ate something light. Then went to Leisure Mall for lunch and to buy cake for my grandfather's birthday later on at night. Then, my mum went to buy cake and later on a new towel and i cam-whored. *cake bought from Bread Story. :) Later on, went back and i took a short nap then woke up, bath and get ready. *that's my bag she's holding. :) Then, went out to eat at a seafood restaurant. After finished eating, went back and it's cut cake time! :D *this is the cake my mum bought. :) *meanwhile, this is the cake my fourth uncle's gf bought. :) *seems like my cousin also wants to be the birthday girl. xD After that, online awhile, took a quick bath and went to bed. :)

Its finally come to an end.

Ohh man, after tomorrow, school holidays will start. Starting to miss my friends and especially HIM. :( Man, the time past so fast! Faster than i could even thought of! I think i'm gonna go crazy this holiday. T.T Tomorrow will be my official last day at afternoon section. Gonna have to say "Goodbye" to afternoon section and "Hello" to morning section and most important of all, PMR! Man, i can't believe next year i'll be in Form 3 and i'm going to take PMR. Will have more nagging from my mum and more stress. Aargh~ I'll sure play and have fun with my friends until kau kau tomorrow. xD Furthermore, tomorrow my class will held a class party and i'm gonna bring camera as they say we're allowed to bring, so, i'll post about my class party the day after tomorrow. I'm just gonna have fun the whole day! Cherish the moments! :D Anyways, i haven't post bout my grandpa's birthday but i'm gonna post it the day after tomorrow also. I'm just being a lazy pig now. xD Feel kinda excited for tomorrow, but there's training. Aargh~ really dun feel like going training, guess just feel like being lazy but Cigie keep asking me go so can teman her, so decided to go. Furthermore, i scared senior angry if i didn't show up. Haiz~ I guess i should sleep now. Tomorrow need get up early to go out buy something. :) Nites guys! :D Countdown, 7 more days! ♥ I Love You! ♥♥

Countdown, 8 more days! ♥ Still dunno what to give you that day. D: Hope you remember! :) Watch your mouth man! Go see yourself in the mirror before saying bout us, k? Dunno whether did you really did those things on purpose or what.

Grandparents' 40th anniversarry. :D

Okeyy, i've said i'm gonna post bout my grandparents' 40th anniversarry and so now here it is! :) It was also held on 23rd of October at my home, at night. We had steamboat. *my cousins. :) Then, cut cake. The cake is my mum buy from some random bakery shop. and that's the end of that day. :) Happy 40th anniversarry, grandpa and grandma! :D

SK's Canteen Day.

Okkeeyyy~ i can finally officially back to blogging, facebook-ing till late night! Finally! Exams officially over! Happy that exams over, but worried of the results. Hope my results is not that bad. Hope it'll satisfies my mum. *finger crossed* Today was my Seni drawing exam and.. well, my drawing was... i think it was quite good. Dun really know will i have high marks for it. Anyways, that's not really important to me. Okey, i'll post about when i went to SK Cochrane on their Hari Keusahawanan, aka, Canteen Day on 23rd of October. SK Cochrane's my ex-school which i studied there since Standard 3 till Standard 6. I decided to visit back to my old school and since my sister is begging me to go, which is really weird, so i decided to go. :) It started with me and my sis waking up at around 7 am and we got ourselves ready. Then, my grandparents drove me and my sis to SK Cochrane. *sorry, i know it's a bit blur due to the car is moving that time *my 'dearest' sis. xD When i arrived there, called Jasmine because we've planned to go together so waited for her for 2 minutes then we bought coupons and waited for the stalls to open. We've had quite a hard time to choose what to eat first but at last, we chose to buy french fries which cost RM 1. The fries was so damn hard! i bite it until my mouth is tired. xD so me and Jas didn't finished it. Next stop was chicken chop! That attracted me and Jas. :D This was nice man! *thumbs up* :) Then, bought chocolate on fruits and sweet corn. *the chocolate was not so nice. *yummy* the sweet corn was delicious! :DD Then, we went to some manicure area but me and Jas didn't do it though we've paid for it. Then, Jas went out to do "her thing" and later, i find her and we did "something". xD Then we saw Foo with her sis because later Foo will be going to his PSS Farewell Party and he need to bring along his sis. He said that there will be a bus to pick up them and i thought Nic will be there too so we walked to SMK where all the PSS will wait for the bus. I waited while Jas do her "thing" again. I waited.. and waited.. and finally, Foo told me he remembered that Nic will be going on his own transport to the hotel. That time i was like "what the hell?" after that, i was like no mood. Then, me and Jas walked back to SK. After awhile, i recieved his sms. I was freaking damn happy after that. I called him and talked awhile with him since i miss him then back to sms-ing. ;D After that, around 1 pm, my mum came and picked me and my sis up. On the way back home, we went to Leisure Mall. The purpose is to buy a Sejarah and KH book but i ended up buying 8 books and 3 CD's. X) Had fun that day. :D Went back to my SK, really reminds me of everything when i'm in that school. Miss those memories, will cherish it. :) Will post bout my grandparents' 40th anniversarry tomorrow, due to the time now is already 1:40 am and i should be going to bed now. Okey, gotta off! Bye! Goodnight! :) Thanks for making my smile to appear back. I ♥ You! :)