有些事情我也说不明白

Hi guys, i know i've abandoned my blog quite some time. Maybe is because i'm not in the mood? Yeah, i think so. *sigh* Anyways, last Saturday came back from Ipoh and nothing much to say bout when i'm there. Just really tired due to all those praying. In a day i need to like pray for 8-10 times. But is for the sake of my great-grandfather, so it's okeyy. When i'm there, well, thanks to YOU, i've been having my bad mood time. Never really thought it'll turn out this way. You seems like you've changed. You never treated me that way and you're making me more and more suspicious of what are you doing. The only happy thing that i had there is at 12 am on 19th of November, where i sent you a kinda long message saying things that i should say to you. Well, still got a lot more to tell you though. But didn't manage to write everything cause it was A LOT! And my mum was there and she was kinda suspicious who was i sms-ing with. That night, i couldn't sleep and i couldn't even stop smiling. My cousin slept next to me and she was giving me a kind of face like "are you crazy??" HAHAA! All on my mind was YOU and our 'fairytale'. Nothing else is on my mind, bothering me. That's the time i didn't worry bout our thing. That night i had one of the best sleep ever! Then, the next day turned out not so brilliant as i thought it will be. And until now, it's still the same. Kept wondering these answers for those questions. Trying to be strong here and day by day, with the help of my friends, i manage to be one. Now, i'm pretending to be like 'them' and enjoy at the meantime. It felt much more better honestly. Dun really have to worry bout anything and i got my FREEDOM! *smile* But still, trying to forget you is trying to remember someone that i've never met. I know it's hard to get rid of you from my mind. You NEVER leave my mind and guess you don't know bout that huh? Missing you terribly is the times i hate myself. Need you by my side is when you broke me down. Never thought we've gone till here. Thought i'm your experimental games? Dude, i'm a human just like you, k? Dun wanna be in my life? Then get out! Maybe you're not even welcome anymore. Puh-lease! Don't act like a spoiled brat, can ya? You respect me, i'll respect you. If you don't, then just get outta my life! Treating me that way is not a smart move you know? You're so smart right? How bout think of something else better to do then doing all these. Though i may not know whether is true or not, but just to let you know, to me i believe it's true with the way you're treating me right now. Wanna denied it, come and settle it with me once and for all. Dun want me appear in your life anymore? Just tell, you won't die. Maybe you'll have some tough times. That's all. :) Friday's gonna be a girls day out with my babes Jas and Cigie to Sunway Lagoon. Let's just say that i can't wait! *excited jumping* Miss them loads! ♥♥ :D Maybe on that day, i'm just gonna ENJOYYYYY! ;D