Never wanna lose you.

Well, still had the thing going on, still really don't know why. Just now chat with Miss Jasmine in fb and she asked me to call him. At first, i said "NO!" but then after awhile, i don't know how i got till there, i've already go to your contact number, press "Call" and i'm calling you! Man, i'm freaking out that time! It grew more and more when YOU answered the call. I never expect that you'll answer my call though. The conversation goes like this : Me : Hello? Him : Hello. Me : May i speak to ___? Him : Ya, this is ___. Me : ohh, erm.. am i bothering you? Him : No. Me : Ohh, erm.. wait ya. *freaking out* where are you now? Him : Home. Me : Ohh, erm.. *silence for a moment* Him : hello? Me : erm.. are you angry at me? Him : erm.. no. Me : erm.. what happened? Him : what happen?? Me : ya, what happened? Him : can i dun talk bout it? Me : ohh, erm.. *quiet* since nothing to say, bye bye lar. *quickly hangs up* shit! Well, that's our conversation overall. I called him again and he didn't pick up. I guess he's really angry at me bout something. Eventhough i don't know what i did that made you like this, but i really wanna tell you, "I'm sorry for whatever i've done that hurt you, i'm really sorry". I don't know what's happening in here, but i want you to know that i truly love you and never want to leave you. I don't know why my love for you is so deep, too deep. I love YOU, don't need reasons right? You're the only one in my mind right now. Eventhough the time is now is really late and i know i should be going to bed now, but, you're the reason i couldn't sleep. I kept looking at the phone, wishing you would call back, or even sms me, but i guess you wouldn't since you sound like you're angry at me. Kept looking at our picture while listening to some emotional songs and that made tears keep rolling down my face. Flashback to everything that we've been through. Happy and sad moments and a smile appeared on my face while tears is rolling down my cheek. Wonder we've been through a long and hard journey. We've been one till now and NOW i'm wondering, will all this memories have to be vanished? Will it really come to an end this time? Will all our time be wasted, just like that? A lot of questions is on my head, waiting to be answered. I know i've been really stupid before this, i know i'm such an idiot. I know what i've done is a very stupid thing, maybe you still haven't forgive me bout that. Maybe you still have those feelings in your heart. Maybe its NOT a maybe. Maybe it is! I know its too late to regret, i know i couldn't rewind time and change everything. I know i've never been perfect for you! Flashback to when we say "Forever and Always" and now i'm wondering, will that ever be true? Or we're just too blind to say that? Countdown 4 more days! I LOVE YOU! P/s : Leave me alone!