Just now, i chat with him. Well, there's a bit hurt. or should i say very. I don't know to trust him or not? but at last i knew the answer is yes. because you are my bf. and nothing can change that. I'll always love you. like i always do. but i wish you to be more brave. xD I never tried to force you, but i hope you will. Haiz~ We've not been through a lot. Almost all my friends said that you only love me. and i no need to scared that you want to break up with me. xP I have to force myself to not to think about negative things about you. I have to tell myself that you only love me. =) I may not be the most prettiest girl in this world, but i hope the love that you felt towards me will always stay in your heart. I would do the same thing too. =] I just want to say : I LOVE YOU

Happy Birthday~!

Happy Birthday to me,

Happy Birthday to me,

Happy Birthday to me~~,

Happy Birthday to me!

haha~ I'm so damn mad! sing birthday song to myself. xD Today is just another normal day except got people wished me "Happy Birthday" and give me presents. =) I want to say "Thank you" to all my friends who wished me "Happy Birthday" and gave me nice presents. Even it's just only a few, but i still appreciatte it. =) I love the presents so much!! Thank you, friends! ^^ Today is my birthday. Should it be a happy day? but why does this feeling came back? It hurts so much! Sometimes, i felt that you don't love me. Sometimes, i'll think negative things. but a lot of my friends said that you only love me, and i should trust you. but am i now? Yes or no? Maybe i should answer "Yes", because i must! That's what hcm said. xP Anyways, today is my birthday. and i should be happy. New Year is coming. New beginning is for me. New good grades to achieve. ^^ As long as i have you, i won't be scared. =) Love you always.

Back from Singapore. =)

I'm back from Singapore. =)

I lazy to post my 5 days trip to Singapore la.

See when i'm in the mood only post la. ^^

Tomorrow need to go to school for Form 1 2010 Orientasi.

Got gotong-royong in our bilik pengawas. xD

Tomorrow also my birthday. Yay~! ^^

I'm quite nervous for tomorrow Form 1 Orientasi. dunno why.

Hope tomorrow will be a great day. =)

Friendships~

Chee Hung - She's my best friend. She helped me alot. She know every single secret of mine. and i know every single secret of hers too. We loved the same person before, but she gave up on that person that i loved and give it to me. Sometimes, she can be very impolite, but i still love her. Because i still remember there's one time i been so stupid to be mad at her. because of that person. but she no mad at me. that's why its stupid! but we are always best friend, no matter what. and i just want to say i'm really so sorry if i've ever hurt you. ♥ Wai Wai - She's also my best friend. I can say that she's very different from me. She always help me in prefect things. and eventhough now she's the vice captain, she still remember me as her best friend. She always support me. I want to say sorry if i've ever hurt your feelings, never respect you or even don't care for you. because i can feel i'm not close to you anymore, but you are always my best friend. nothing can change that. ♥ Suet Yee - She's my best friend. we are 80% close. She's more close with Cigie. but i won't be jealous. i don't want to ruined their friendship. She also helped me a lot. She's nice. nothing much about her i can tell. but i'm glad i have a friend like her. I love her. I'm sorry if i've done anything wrong towards you. ♥ Yi Wen - To be honest, before this i hate you. but then i realize why should i hate you? I've been so foolish! I'm really really so so so sorry to you. I hope you'll forgive me on what i've done. and now we are best friend, i promise i won't tell out your secret. I hope you still take me as your friend?♥ Cigie - We are not really close. but she's my best friend. She's kind. She always help people, including me, when they need a hand. She doesn't share a lot of secret with me, but it's ok. I love her. ♥ Carl Men - He's someone like my best friend. we share secret. when i'm unhappy, he'll have his way to make me happy. He's my duty partner. He helped me alot. Eventhough, we fight most of the time, he still treat me nicely. well, most of the time! Sometimes, he don't care for me, i can be very sad, but its ok. Don't misunderstand. I don't love nor like him. I'm sorry if i did not respect you, angry at you without reason and so on. ♥ Jie Yin - She's my kai jie. She's very very kind. She'll always try her best to help me. She'll comfort me when i'm not happy. I'm sorry if i don't care for you or so on. I love her so much! ♥ Feng Qing - I can realize that we always fight. but we end up back together. I want to say a million sorry to you, because i've done so many wrong things made you unhappy. I don't meant to make you angry or unhappy. I'm so stupid because i've never cared for your feelings. I'm really really sorry. ♥ Yen Ying - She's my beloved kai jie. She'll always help whenever she could, especially duty. I want to say thank you a million times. and also sorry if i've done anything wrong. ♥ Jun Yen - He's my kai gor. He always cared for me. I appreciatte that alot! He'll comfort me when i'm unhappy. Thank you, gor. You'll always be my beloved gor gor. ♥ Bowie - I love her! She's a very kind girl. She's helpful too. Eventhough we are not close, but you cared for me. and i want to say thank you on what you done for me. ♥ Maybe you'll think this post is boring, because all i say is thank you or sorry. But it meant a lot to me. coz i'm very happy that i have such great friends who support me when i'm down. Whoever is my friend, but the name is not listed here, doesn't mean that you are not my friend. If i have made someone angry, unhappy, hurt or so on, i'm really sorry. Hope you'll forgive me. If you've help me, i wanted to say thank you so much! P/s : To be honest, sometimes i felt left out from my best friend. but i would not be mad at them, coz they are always my best friend, no matter what~ P/s 2 : If i've done anything wrong, or made you 'bu suang wo', you can tell me. I won't hate you. In fact, i will change to be a better friend and person. P/s 3 : I don't want to be enemy with anybody, i just want to be friends with everyone. =)

Pet Society..~

At home, so boring.

nothing to do unless online whole day.

Online whole day play pet society.

very nice. 'bu chuo'. =)

I can say that i'm addicted to Pet Society. =P

Everyday, try to get more money.

so can buy more things. (pet society)

example : furniture.. want money to decorate my pet's home. ^^

'fad chin hon' xP haha~ xD

* my pet's house ** Wei Wei *

* Merry Christmas! *

Sometimes, i play pet society. i'll feel boring.

because everyday, play the same game. ==

but what else can i do?

so starting addicted to Pet Society. =]

and i'll go visit other pets, like i always do. xP

and i'll always visit each pet.

but there's one pet that i don't want to visit.

That is ____'s pet.

i don't want to say out the name. ><

i don't hate her.

maybe is i think too much already gua.

maybe i should really trust you?

i just can't. =(

I just want you to tell me what feelings you felt towards her right now?

The truth!

I really want to know are you still in love with her?

even you like her a little bit, also tell me. Please!

i want you to tell me yourself.

i don't want to ask you.

because i don't dare. ><

I don't know what mood am i in now?

angry? sad? scared? Haiz~

I hope that sooner or later, you'll tell me the truth.

whether you're feelings towards her is still in your heart?

P/s : i'm suffering so hard from my hurt. the hurt just won't go. =(

Pain !

This days, there is a pain in my heart.

I dunno why.

Everytime i think of you, it started to hurt my heart.

Feels like want to cry. ='(

It hurt so badly!

I can't sms you. You're in hong kong right now. =(

Miss you badly! so badly sometimes until cry. ='((

and i dunno how to describe my feelings right now.

Scared? I think so.

Sometimes there are many question in my mind.

keep asking myself the same question.

Are you still in love with her?

Do you still have feelings towards her?

Do you really only love me?

Are you hiding something from me?

Sometimes, i feel so confused.

suddenly think of all this question.

When i started sms with you.

that time you haven't confess to me.

You always talk about her. and i always talk about him. ==

I told you that i'm letting go of him.

Then, you told me that you also tried to let go of her, but you can't.

You told me you tried for six months already.

but you still can't.

and now i'm wondering.. you still love her?

I want to ask you this question.

but i'm scared. i scared you angry.

i also ask myself, do i really trust you?

i answer myself 'dunno'.

hcm ask me to trust you.

That's what love are. trust each other.

but i dunno i can or not.

i don't want to leave you. and i also don't want you to leave me.

i really tried to forget about this. but i just can't!

Everytime i think of you, this many question will pop up into my head.

can't let it go away. including my pain.

Sometimes, i'll feel that you don't want to talk to me.

don't want to 'choi' me. =(

why you don't straightly tell me you miss me so much?

why need your friend tell me? why??

I really feel so hurt right now. =(

P/s : are there one girl or two girl in your heart? ><

New haircut..~

Yesterday went to my Uncle Biby saloon. Firstly, we get dressed. lol. =) *i admit that my sister is prettier than me*

Then, we went to Sungei Wang where my uncle Biby saloon is located.

*my baby cousin, but she's like a sister to me. she's so adorable*

But then, when we arrive there, my uncle Biby haven't arrive. and at the meantime, i was hungry. So, we went to Teppanyaki. Our grandfather gave us RM30 voucher in the morning for Teppanyaki, so we used it. lol. I ordered Prawn Teppanyaki and a Chawa Mushi. *yum yum*

*she's demanding for food, because she's also really hungry*

After finish our food, our uncle Biby called and said that he've arrived and that we can go back to the saloon and have our hair cut. So, we went back to the saloon. =) My sister, Jaime, was the first one. she go and wash her hair first. After a few minutes, it was my turn. I also go and wash my hair first. Later, i went back to my seat. I have to wait because uncle Biby is cutting my sister hair. So, i waited lol.

*my hair is not comb and also still wet. my mom behind there. xD*

After that, cut my hair... wash my hair again. cut my hair again. and then, dry my hair. I'm all done! =) We went out of the saloon and play with our baby cousin.

*I look ok tak?*

The end of the day. =)

Love like this..~ ♥

We've been together for a short time and not as long as people thought. Eventhough in this one month, we never officially sit down and have a chat, only sms together and never called each other, but then, i still can feel the love from you. You'll always say you love me and you say you'll love me forever. Everytime when you say that to me, i'm really happy. Maybe sometimes you're shy, and you don't dare to go near me because i'm with my friends. but i still love you even you don't have the guts. Maybe you're not the best in this world. but you're my only boyfriend and i love the way you are. You'll always make me happy when i'm down and i just want to say, I Love You. Happy One Month Anniversary, dear. ♥ 19th of November : In the afternoon, you confess to me. At night around 11 something, i agreed. You said you won't leave me alone. and i promise you to be happy everyday. I've been taking this relationship seriously, and i'm not playing with this relationship. This relationship meant a lot to me! I'll always love you, no matter what. ♥

Here I am..~

Here i am.. ~

In my home sweet home. xD

Playing with my hair.. ==

been thinking of how to cut my hair.

because this sunday going to my uncle Biby saloon. to cut my hair. lol. =) Can't wait~!

hmm.. i decided to cut my hair in front there short. lol. ^^

took some pictures while playing with my hair. xP

Nice? Pretty? Love this picture the most! ^^ Love this picture also. =) I look a bit wierd in this picture. == My face look soo big. xD Last picture. ^^

SKIP ______

This days.. at home boring. lol. ==

online whole day.

Few days ago, i met a boy or a guy..

he's 18. he add me at Facebook.

He's name is Kevin Tham. full name, dunno. ^^" i never ask him.

but i dunno how he looks like.

he wanted to be friends with me. =)

he just finish his SPM. =] He's from SMK Datok Lokman.

we chat a lot. at facebook.

Just now, he ask me when's my birthday.

my birthday is just around the corner. Woots~! Can't wait! xP

and he also ask me like pets or not. ^^

he say he'll give me a pet on my birthday.

I was shocked of course! xD

but i don't want la.. i answered him.

he's birthdate same with my dear.

3rd September. ^^

SKIP ______

Just now, somebody sms me.

And after i saw his sms, i was so shocked!

First sms, he ask me i got bf or not?

And i ask him why? Lol.

And guess what he answered??

He answered me that if he can become my bf or not?

I was so shocked!! Very de shocked!

but i don't want to reply him.

I know it's rude.. xP

Anyway, you can guess who is the person. ^^

Missing you ~ ♥

On saturday, my last sms with you is at 6.09 pm.

And your flight to Hong Kong is at 6.30 pm.

I'm really going to miss you! In fact, i'm going to miss you very much!!

Anyway, you say you'll sms me when you're back to Malaysia.. and that's next year. dunno when.. =]

When you're away, i just couldn't sleep.. I just couldn't stop thinking about you.

Yesterday night, i lie in my bed at 10.30 pm. I use my earphone to hear songs from my phone.

I keep hearing the same song which is 我知道(I know) by By2. I love this song so much! but i love you more!! ^^ This song remind me of you.. Dunno why.

I'm trying to sleep but it's just so hard! but at last, i manage to sleep at 1 am. Haiz~

When i think of you, and you're not there.. i'll hug my teddy bear and pretend that's you.

I want to hug you like in this picture. ^^

You're always in my mind. Your love is always in my heart.

KLCC/C Annual Dinner 2009..~

Yesterday, i went to St. John annual dinner. It was quite fun.. =)

Let's begin the story.. hahaxx~ xD

I thought i'm going to be late for annual dinner because the time is already 5.08 pm. and i'm still stucking in traffic jam.. Haiz~ Really traffic jam. Senior told us that we must arrive before 5.15 pm if not we cannot go in. I was in the car of coz praying.. xP I think my praying work.. =] Because after that, the traffic went a bit smooth.. and luckily i was not late.. it can be said i'm just right on time..^^

When i arrive there, i saw the Form 2 boys. I was like 'OMG!'.. but still i have to go in.. without looking at them.. I was finding Suet Yee cause i know she arrive already.. When i found her, we chat..~ chat..~ chat..~ ^^ Suet Yee looks really pretty.. Really! Pretty than me.. and of coz, taller than me.. xp After a while, Xue Yinn arrives.. we chat..~ chat..~ chat..~ Xue Yinn also look really leng luii.. love her hair^^ That time, Cigie haven't arrive.. and it was our time to go up to the Ballroom.. We registered ourselves. After that, we waited for Cigie. When Cigie arrive, we explain her part to her(performance). I also want to say Cigie also very leng luii. And i don't want to look to my left cause i don't want the Form 2 boys to misunderstood.. xP

Later, it was the opening ceremony. Watch slideshow, after that, enjoy food.. I don't eat much though.. Never eat desert.. =) Later, go toilet.. Cigie and Xue Yinn help me to make-up.. coz i don't have any make-up on.. natural?? haha~

After that, it was time to do the performance.. and Form 1 is the first. So, we did our performance. dunno good or not. hmm.. but there's 1 part everybody shouted.. That part is when Cigie and Carl Men hold hands.. I don't have the picture. I don't have the chance to take it. I'm sure it's very sweet. After our performance, is Form 2's performance followed by Form 3 and Form 4... =)

We play games after that. Got one game we need to be divided into squad. and guess what?? I and Private Tee same squad. but i don't care. Luckily, Cigie same squad with me. xD It feels like i don't need to play the game. Then, got one game is damn painful if you were beaten a lot of times.. xD but me, Cigie and Suet Yee and some of the girls didn't play the game.. well, we were beaten some times. I was beaten 3-4 times^^. That time i started no mood already. and suddenly i cried. can't control my tears. tears keep rolling down. Suet Yee saw me crying and of coz ask me why. i also dunno why. hmm... Cigie also ask why. LoL. I have to control my tears before somebody else saw it. xP

And maybe the reason is because i miss him?? hmm.. dunno.. now he's at Hong Kong. i can't sms with him. he say he's coming back next year. i think maybe it's starting of the year. =) I'm really going to miss him!! He knows that i'm going to be really sad when he's not in Malaysia. He ask me to be happy. So, i promise him i'll be happy. =) but let me cry for one more time and i'll promise you that i'll smile every day. Let get back to the story. hehe~ After that, speech by each senior. Honestly, it was boring. xP but it was a bit fun. and my mother is rushing me. ask me to hurry. xD After finish the speech, the annual dinner is officially ended. Some are crying. ='( Anyway, after that, i met my mother and sister. I was damn tired.

So, we went back home. but i dunno why i'm damn tired still cannot sleep. Haiz~ thinking 'bout him. Missing him so much! Eventhough, you are far away from me, but you are always in my heart. Love you always. ♥

I took some pictures. Well, only 2 larh.. hehe~ ^^

I know i look ugly.. xP

The AC. (Macho arh?) hahaxx~ xD

Fun day! :DD

Yesterday, i went to my friend's house(Wai Wai).. with Jie Yin... =]

First, me n my sister woke up at 8.00 am. but that time is still early.. so we decided to watch tv first.. =) Later we ate our breakfast which is noodle... Then, at about 9.00 am. we get ready...^^

After we get ready, our grandparents drive us... but they don't know where is it so, we tumpang Jie Yin's car...^^ So Jie Yin decided that we should meet at the school... Well, when i arrived there at 10.30 am. she arrived already.. [fast] xD After that, Jie Yin's mom took us to Wai Wai's hse... When we arrive there.. we saw Wai Wai.. she's dress all in black.. [wow] xp We don't exactly know what are we going to do at there.. Hmm... My sister is playing with my hp games while listening to music... Haiz~ We played psp games.. (its my first time playing.. quite good though^^) When we were playing, we are like crazy!! We shouted like "go die larh you..!!" or "Yay..!" or even "i need help here!!" in chinese of course.. xD It was so fun...!! haha~ Then, we eat our lunch.. nice... :) eat lot of junk food.. hehe~ Then, later we chat about prefect things in Wai Wai room.. hahaxx..~ we chat about next year how arh.. pelajar next year... and so on......... =] Then, chat..~ chat..~ chat..~... Then, we go down and play at the below 12 years old playground..[i'm still 12.. haha..~] We play the swing and compete to see whether who can go the highest.. [i know is childish] xp We were laughing happily.. Later, we go to the other playground which is for small children.. At there, we kinda been bully by small children.. so 'pai seh'.. ==" we just wanted to sit at there.. and not want to play...[dunno what is it called.. its a thing that has a spring under it] But got 1 boy say in chinese, say to another boy loudly.. "(name), they dunno how to sit.. go and compete with them.. see whose the fastest.. we were like "Huh??" but we don't care.. coz they are 'little boys'.. Then the boy say again.. "hey.. there are mommy(s) looking at us.." [he's saying us] somemore got 1.. but i forgot already.. Then Jie Yin's mom called.. she said she almost arrive.. so we went up and take our belongings.. we borrowed some of Wai Wai's storybooks.. coz holiday boring.. books could be a great companion^^ I borrowed two books from her... Jie Yin borrowed 10 books from her.. [wow] coz Wai Wai also will borrow Jie Yin's books to read.. 10 books also.. so fair and square^^ Can't take a lot of photo.. only 2.. coz they don't let me.. =p Later, Jie Yin's mom drop me and my sister at Tesco..[dunno where.. xp] My grandparents took us from there.. and my grandfather say he want to go somewhere first... then we go somewhere[dunno where is it].. That is where my father work.. =) Then, our father bought Macdonald for us to eat.. Later, we enter a sweet store.. all sweets! Then, our grandfather ask us to choose.. My sister want marshmallow.. Haiz~ After eating marshmallow.. nothing to do.. took some picture^^ It was cold inside the car...

Still got many pictures de.. but i lazy to upload.. xp Later we went to a 'mamak' stall.. coz my grandfather want to talk about bussiness with his client.. =) At there, i ate a 'roti kosong' n the other half of my grandmother 'roti kosong'... Finish eating, boring... very long my grandfather discuss... Haiz~ My sister very tired already.. she slept.. i almost want to, but my grandmother ask for the car key from grandfather and we slept in the car.. My sister had a bad flu so she can't attend her tuition yesterday.. When we arrived home, we were very tired..! My sister slept early last night.. she slept at 8.30 pm.. I slept 10.30 pm. coz i watch tv^^

Thank You..~ ♥

A gentle word like a spark of light,

Illuminates my soul..

And as each sound goes deeper,

It's YOU that makes me whole..

There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill.. And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still.. And yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth.. Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof.. So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life.. I'll do the same for you, you know, MY DEAR... ♥