Today is me and him geh 4th month anniversarry~!

But today ain't a happy day for me .. YET.

I dunno why.

Now my heart very de "lap lap luin" ar~

I know i'm a very emo girl.

Can be happy at this moment , but sad at the next minute.

Am i weirdo? I dunno.

Yesterday , he manage to make me happy by saying all those sweet sweet things to me.

He told me all those things , i believe it's true and it melted my heart.

That's why yesterday , he end my day with a smile on my face.

But today , my sorrows came back and the smile on my face dissapeared.

I really wish that he can spend more time with me so that we can know each other more well.

I think i don't know you well enough.

I think that's the reason why i don't really trust you.

Many people told me that you can be trusted and you won't lie to me.

To them , you can be trusted. but to me , are you?

I really dunno. I'm still searching for the answer.

Now chatting with him.

me , him

You know what day is today ar?

er.. i dunno wor.. what day is today? Can tell me?

Ok lar. I ask you lar. When we start our relationship wan?

er.. i remember is on the second last day of school.

Yes. It's on the second last day of school. But what date is on that day?

er.. i kinda forgotten. Can tell me ar?

I really don't mind if he don't know today is our 4th month anniversarry.

But if he dunno when our relationship started , i'm not afraid to say that i mind.

I'm not angry at him or anything. It's just that i'm a bit dissapointed. =(

I have a feeling that our relationship is getting worse.

I want our relationship to be better~!

I want our relationship to always be strong so that nobody could ever separate us.

But i dun have this encouragement. =(

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My mum this morning approximately at 5 am left the house and went to Sabah , to work.

lol. She will be back on the 27th.

and on that day is my cousin wedding.

She told me that this time , her customer is fussy.

so , she have this feeling that is telling her that she can't make it to the wedding.

but i really really really hope that she can make it.

Please~! Hope that my mum can make it to my cousin wedding. =)

P/s : No matter what happens , i'll always love you. You are my only boyfriend and i'll love you as much as you love me. ♥