Me and you = no more.

Our special ___ ______ and special ____ ______ relationship broke already ar?? I really want to know. You don't want to talk to me. You don't even want to be my friend anymore. Just because you said that you don't want to see me sad again just because of you? I already told you that i sad it's not because of you! It's because of Nicholas angry at me, so i scared he will break up with me. That's what i scared of that time! That's why i'm sad and i cried. But it's really not because of you! This have nothing to do with you about my sadness that day! After i saw your sms, i'm really extremely hurt, do you know that??! Since then on, everytime i saw you, heard your name or anything that is related to you, my heart will start to hurt and starting to like breaking into small pieces! It's very suffering!! There's one day, after Saturday training, you gave back a gift that i bought for you when i went to Thailand. It's soooo hurt!! You ask Xue Yinn to give it back to me. At first, i really don't want to take it, i don't know why. So, after i took it, i quickly put it in my bag. And there's the feeling again. It's so hurting until i want to cry, but i try my best to don't cry. and i manage to do that. But in my heart, it hurts like i'm in hell!! It hurts soooooooo much!! until i couldn't say how much. Me n Nicholas relationship mend back together already. But how about us?? I can feel that you're avoiding me. We are both prefects! More worse, we have the same post! How could we be unity in a time like this! See our situation! You don't talk to me, i don't talk to you. We don't even look at each other. How can we duty?? That's why this two weeks, i've never did late comers. Feng Qing did it for me. (Thanks, Feng Qing. Ily.♥) How are we going to do late comers together. This is our job,right?? I really don't want to let senior know about our situation right now. Everytime when i saw you, or heard your name or whatever is related to you, i'll feel angry and hurt at the same time. I'll feel like want to slap or even punch you!! but i know i couldn't do it. I also don't know why. Some of my friends, they want to help by talking to you, to friend back me. But you just don't want to listen!

WHEREVER I AM, HE WILL NOT BE THERE.

EVEN IF HE DO, IT'S BECAUSE HE'S FORCE TO.

AND HE WILL NOT TALK TO ME(100%).

i really hope there will be something to cure this. =(