Your love once touched my heart.
I've once believed every "I LOVE YOU" you've told me. I once trusted you that you'll trust me. I've once gave you my heart, because i thought you'll take a good care of it. But all of these, was just my imagination. I fall for you too easily and now, it's extremely hard for me to climb back up from the deep hole in your heart. Now, i'm trying really hard to get out from that hole and move on. Keep telling myself that i can live without YOU. That you're NOTHING to me anymore, that i need to stop myself from loving YOU. All of these may sound easy, but somehow, there's a part of me, stopping me from doing all these. I wonder, how long will it takes for me to let you go, to make myself believe that this love isn't true and it will not last.
I should be happy of my desicion. I should be happy, because this is what i'm asking for. But i don't know why my heart hurts! Am i still in love with you extremely? Will i ever succeed to climb back up and move on to my own way? Will we ever have our chance back? Questions is flooding in my mind! Waiting for answers! Waiting for this LOVE to go so i wouldn't concern bout you anymore. So i wouldn't get hurt anymore!
I've deleted EVERYTHING bout me and you, hope that will help me to let go of you. But there's one thing i'll never forget and will NEVER delete, those are OUR memories. Memories are the only thing i could not delete between me and you, because all these memories, will not fade away. They wouldn't let me delete them from my mind! But speaking of OUR memories, sometimes, when i think bout it, it does put a smile on my face. Sometimes, i would instantly have a bit of my mood back. I guess those memories wouldn't wanna go away, because they know that you mean a lot to me, once. And i would not have that same feeling again. You're someone i'll NEVER forget, though everytime i think bout you, my heart hurts.
I know you may not be reading my blog anymore, due to i removed you, i still wanna say "I LOVE YOU!". Honestly, i don't even know why i could fall for you so deep! When i first met you, i never thought you will mean so much to me. I thought you will be just be one of my friends. Never thought we'll have something and it's been more than a year. And now, it's all OVER! Officially OVER! But to tell the truth, i still have deep feelings for YOU, still desperately IN LOVE with you! Guess it's because more than one year of relationship, isn't that easy to let go.
Just now online-ing at Facebook, saw you online, and pretending not to give a damn thing bout it. Trying not to think too much. And guess what? You're the one whose made my day. You came and chat with me, and i was surprised, of course! We chat like normal. Chat bout quite a lot of stuffs, and i was non-stop smiling and laughing! I guess you don't know that. Anyways, suddenly you offline, i was quite dissapointed, but some part of me, was happy, was really feeling great! Then, i was wondering.. "are we still friends?". I really don't know. Didn't really have the courage to ask you. But i'm glad that though we're not together anymore, we're still talking through internet, right? You still ask me "how are you?". Don't wanna say you still care for me. Maybe you're just being.. nice? Haha.
Though i'm depressed in the inside, but my face will appeared a smile, just to let everybody know, even myself, that i'm totally fine without him. That i can move on, after what i've gone through. But if follow the fact, this is not really the fact.
Well, have to thank my friends for being there for me. For showing me their care, for supporting me and giving me advices when i needed it. They've been making me happy since they know that after what happened, i'm depressed. But my dear friends, dun worry! It's time to say "Goodbye!" to all the repeating sadness that i've been through. Time to build a strong bridge, so that i can walk on it safely across. Thank you guys! For being there for me! :D
I've once believed every "I LOVE YOU" you've told me. I once trusted you that you'll trust me. I've once gave you my heart, because i thought you'll take a good care of it. But all of these, was just my imagination. I fall for you too easily and now, it's extremely hard for me to climb back up from the deep hole in your heart. Now, i'm trying really hard to get out from that hole and move on. Keep telling myself that i can live without YOU. That you're NOTHING to me anymore, that i need to stop myself from loving YOU. All of these may sound easy, but somehow, there's a part of me, stopping me from doing all these. I wonder, how long will it takes for me to let you go, to make myself believe that this love isn't true and it will not last.
I should be happy of my desicion. I should be happy, because this is what i'm asking for. But i don't know why my heart hurts! Am i still in love with you extremely? Will i ever succeed to climb back up and move on to my own way? Will we ever have our chance back? Questions is flooding in my mind! Waiting for answers! Waiting for this LOVE to go so i wouldn't concern bout you anymore. So i wouldn't get hurt anymore!
I've deleted EVERYTHING bout me and you, hope that will help me to let go of you. But there's one thing i'll never forget and will NEVER delete, those are OUR memories. Memories are the only thing i could not delete between me and you, because all these memories, will not fade away. They wouldn't let me delete them from my mind! But speaking of OUR memories, sometimes, when i think bout it, it does put a smile on my face. Sometimes, i would instantly have a bit of my mood back. I guess those memories wouldn't wanna go away, because they know that you mean a lot to me, once. And i would not have that same feeling again. You're someone i'll NEVER forget, though everytime i think bout you, my heart hurts.
I know you may not be reading my blog anymore, due to i removed you, i still wanna say "I LOVE YOU!". Honestly, i don't even know why i could fall for you so deep! When i first met you, i never thought you will mean so much to me. I thought you will be just be one of my friends. Never thought we'll have something and it's been more than a year. And now, it's all OVER! Officially OVER! But to tell the truth, i still have deep feelings for YOU, still desperately IN LOVE with you! Guess it's because more than one year of relationship, isn't that easy to let go.
Just now online-ing at Facebook, saw you online, and pretending not to give a damn thing bout it. Trying not to think too much. And guess what? You're the one whose made my day. You came and chat with me, and i was surprised, of course! We chat like normal. Chat bout quite a lot of stuffs, and i was non-stop smiling and laughing! I guess you don't know that. Anyways, suddenly you offline, i was quite dissapointed, but some part of me, was happy, was really feeling great! Then, i was wondering.. "are we still friends?". I really don't know. Didn't really have the courage to ask you. But i'm glad that though we're not together anymore, we're still talking through internet, right? You still ask me "how are you?". Don't wanna say you still care for me. Maybe you're just being.. nice? Haha.
Though i'm depressed in the inside, but my face will appeared a smile, just to let everybody know, even myself, that i'm totally fine without him. That i can move on, after what i've gone through. But if follow the fact, this is not really the fact.
Well, have to thank my friends for being there for me. For showing me their care, for supporting me and giving me advices when i needed it. They've been making me happy since they know that after what happened, i'm depressed. But my dear friends, dun worry! It's time to say "Goodbye!" to all the repeating sadness that i've been through. Time to build a strong bridge, so that i can walk on it safely across. Thank you guys! For being there for me! :D
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