Sorry guys, i will update my blog as soon as my final exams over. :) Add oil! :D P/s : thanks for making my day more worse!

Re-BFA and BFA Test - 17.10.10

On 17th of October, i went for St. John's re-BFA test at HQ. It started with me waking up and got ready myself. Then, on the way there, i was freaking out for two reasons. One, HIM! Cigie sms-ing with me and says that he's already there. Ohh man, my heart was thumping so fast that time. Two, is because of the re-BFA that i'm going to take. As i was freaking out in the car, i prayed for my test to pass. Thanks to my grandma help. Seniors asked us to arrive before 8 am, and the test start 9 something. When we were waiting aka studying first aid, took some pictures. Photo credits from Miss Cigie. :)

*we Form 2's were sitting in a group

*me and Jas and i'm covering my face from the camera, lol.

When it was time for the test to start, me, Jas and Cigie were freaking out! We were like keep asking each other questions except Cigie, because she's trying to calm down. Firstly, i did Choking and CPR. My name was called, so i cannot not go. I'm kinda confident i can pass my Choking and CPR though, the officer did ask many questions and there's a few questions i couldn't manage to answer. Next, i did Recovery Position and Transportation. My partner during recovery position was Jasmine. I don't know why i couldn't stop giggling when Jas is doing recovery position on me. Then when transportation, Cigie is my partner. I don't really know whether i can pass my transportation or not. After that, it was bandaging. My partner was Cigie. We've already booked for each other. I guess my bandaging failed because i'm suppose to do arm sling for forearm fracture, but unfortunately, i did e-sling. Hope i'll ONLY fail bandaging. Hope that overall, i'll pass.

After we've finished everything, me, Cigie and Jas went to Carrefour's mamak store to have our lunch.

*me and Cigie *Jasmine

Then, we went to JJ to buy ice cream from MacDonald. It was raining heavily that time. So we sat at the food court for awhile and when the rain slow down, we walked back to school. It was still raining so we ran then we walk. By the time we've reached outside school, we were soaking wet. So, we sat outside the school and since the time is still early, we chit-chat about 'something'. Btw, thank you guys! :)

Then, we went back. Cigie went back first, followed by Jas then only me. I didn't had a really good day. He talked to me and i kinda ignored him, and i just simply shouted at somebody. I feel so bad for doing these. I'm sorry guys. :( i just not in the mood all of a sudden, too stress i guess.

Hope we all will PASS! *finger cross*

P/s : is that true? kinda scared everytime saw you looking at me.

哭過就好了.

Today went for St. John meeting at HQ. It started with me waking up at 6.20 am and got ready myself. Then, 7.05 am, left the house and Cigie was rushing me because that time, there's only her one NC and her leng zai was there too, so she's scared, extremely scared. Then, Jie Yin and Jasmine arrived. That makes four NC Form 2. Then around 7.45 am, we fall-in then usual warm up. Then play games, but it's not actually games, it's basically a training. After that, for those who didn't attend the last trial BFA test need to do it today, and for those who took the trial BFA test, they go to another side and discuss about the written test, if i'm not mistaken. After finished everything, everybody was able to go home. Before going home, my grandma brought me to eat 'yong tau foo'. I was so damn full after that! I don't want to type so long today. Reason? Not in the mood, after heard something that really hurt my heart. *crying* I know i should be happy because everythings back to normal, as i wished it would be. But there's this suffering feeling, sad feeling, i don't really know why. I'm happy but i'm also sad at the same time. Am i just too tired or what? Haiz~

Say that i hate you, but deep down inside, i'm hurting.

43 Things A Girl Wished Her Boyfriend Knew! 1. When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away. 2. When she misses you, she's hurting inside. 3. When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers. 4. When she walks away from you mad, follow her. 5. When she stares at your mouth, kiss her. 6. When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go. 7. When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her. 8. When she ignores you, give her your attention. 9. When she pulls away, pull her back. 10. When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful and when a girl says she's ugly then she wants u to say ur beautiful or pretty back. 11. When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word. 12. When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind. 13. When she's scared, protect her. 14. When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her. 15. When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night. 16. When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh. 17. When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay. 18. When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth. 19. When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you could understand. 20. When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers. 21. When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh. 22. When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold. 23. When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does. 24. Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything. 25. Don't let her have the last word. 26. Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better. 27. Say you love her more than she could ever love you. 28. Argue that she is the best girl ever. 29. When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go. 30. When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 years later she'll still remember it. 31. Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her. 32. Call her before you sleep and after you wake up. 33. Treat her like she's all that matters to you. 34. Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends. 35. Stay up all night with her when she's sick. 36. Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid. 37. Let her into your world. 38. Let her wear your clothes. 39. When she's bored and sad, hang out with her. 40. Let her know she's important. 41. Kiss her in the pouring rain. 42. When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is, "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?". 43. After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too. P/s : don't really know what's on your mind. :(

Is it THE END?

Hey guys! Now is approximately 1 am on 15/10/2010. Just finish watching DVD with my maid, Clash of the Titans. Man, it was so damn nice! Practically, i'm just simply blogging to spill my feelings out. Just finish solving my friends problem. Well, not really a problem. Just cheer her up and give her useful advices and seems to me, she's so much better. I guess now she's taking her good night sleep as i've asked her to. My dark circles are getting worse and worse nowadays, due to my late sleep every night. I'll be on the bed, sleeping around 1.30 am. Reason? Think too much, or should i say stress about "something" until i cannot sleep. Well, the good news, i manage to block the tears from rolling down my face and i feel that i'm much more happier. *smile* but during i'm taking my bath, there's a few tears came out, but after that, there's no more and i can feel that i don't need to cry anymore. I feel so much better now! Don't really know how to describe this feeling i'm having now, but i think it can be describe as happy. But still, there's this awkward feeling, cannot to be describe feeling. It's not making me suffer, that's the good thing. Anyways, i'll just take my friend's advice. Maybe what my friend say is true. I can't believe you even think about it. It's so hard for me to trust you already. Do you want it or not? I know it's a past but have you ever think of it NOW? If you do, you can tell me or you want me to make the desicion? I can~ i know is gonna be hard for me but, if i think it's the correct think to do, then i'll do it. Like you've said to me before, "follow what your heart says". Maybe i'm just gonna follow what my heart says. You can change that from happening though but i guess, you're just too "clever" to do that. I've been thinking, are you feeling the same way as i feel for you now? Well, i have nothing to say much. I don't even know what happen. I'm trying really hard to figure it out and i guess you don't even want to care. Today i really feel like bursting out everything, but i don't want to create a "show" at there. Don't want to start another "drama" between us. If not, i'll be "said" again. There's a lot on my mind and i've been thinking about should i confront you like she asked me to. It's the best way to end this. But i really don't know how. It's hard, but it's the only way to make us better. Or should i just follow what my friend say? There's been a lot of questions on my mind. Most of it are cannot to be answered questions. Haiz~

P/s : should i end this now or just go on with you?

Well, hey guys! I'm back! Yeah, i know i should be having my good night sleep and be "freshed" to concentrate in my school, studies. But i just can't lie down on my bed to have my good night sleep. Even if i lie down on my bed, i just couldn't fall asleep. I kept having these "things" on my mind. Can't get rid of it no matter what! The more i think about it, the more sad i am. Sad doesn't really describe it. Erm.. *thinking* not in the mood lar, not really sad though, but also kinda pissed. I just want to get rid of these "thoughts" and don't think too much and focus on my studies as my exam is coming. But really no matter how hard i've tried, i just can't. It's like, kept in my "long term memory" in my brain. Honestly, it does effect a bit of my studies. I hate that way you've treated me. Is it i did something wrong or what? Why don't you tell me? or you're just too SHY?? *pissed* aargh~ sometimes, i hope you did "somethings", but you wouldn't. It's not i'm forcing you or anything, it's everyone that they should do to show that they care about you. But you just didn't. All you do is ditch me. Well, cannot really say ditch, erm.. don't really know how to explain but it's like you don't really care about me. Sometimes, i don't know what is on your mind. I really don't know what you feel towards me. These make me so damn freaking sad and kinda pissed. I just don't wanna show my sadness, because NOBODY will care. So might as well, keep my feelings to myself. I don't know what to say already. You don't want talk to me then, simple, i don't talk to you. If you're "ready" to talk to me, then i'm open. I'm always there for you, but i guess you don't know. Nevermind~ maybe you don't even care? Haiz~ Should i follow what my tuition friend suggest me to do? But i just couldn't do it. Ya, maybe it's just to give you a "warning" or anything but i couldn't do it on YOU. I'll feel damn freaking sad and you will be seeing me like a crazy old woman lost in the jungle. I don't know what to do. All i can do is look at you and wonder what is on your mind. Wonder what are you thinking. Wonder do you still treat me the way you should. I guess these are cannot be answered questions. I guess i need to go back to my old style and try my very best to focus on my studies. Maybe "these thoughts" will have to follow me unless everythings back to normal. P/s : i'm just gonna zip my mouth. =/ P/s 2 : i guess i just don't deserve people to be pity at me and nobody will. ='(

Finally~ :DD

Okay, finally i can go back school. Yay~! I'm so happy that i can go back school is because of HIM and also my friends. Lol~ xD Well, i have nothing to say much. Exam's and re-BFA/BFA is just around the corner. Not enough preparation yet though. I guess from today onwards, i really need to focus on my study. Due to that, maybe i will left my blog dead for awhile. Sorry ya. Hope everything will be okay today. Gotta go get ready to school guys! See you till the next post. ;)

Just think positive ! :)

Oh my, oh my~ i guess i'm just thinking too much. He just called and i knew what happened. Thank god! Why should i think that way at first? My tuition friend was right. She should have slap me for thinking like that. I can't wait to tell her the good news. *smiling widely* I've been really stupid to think that way, i know. Now i know, lol. I really missed him! Is that the cause that made me worry so much? Hmm, anyways, tomorrow school will start and i can finally see him. *excited* I'm glad tomorrow school will start! *smile* Back to the old quote, "yay!". Haiz~ my year-end exam is coming and i know i should be studying right now but don't know why not in the mood to do right now. Hmm.. but if i don't start my study now, i'm afraid it will be too late. My mum wants me to get flying colours in my exam this time, of course, who doesn't. *pfft* Anyways, *thinking* i think i better do a bit of studying to refresh my memory first. So, i guess i need to take out my revision books to start studying. Wish me luck guys! ;) Good luck to YOU too! :DD P/s : i love you, dear.

난 영원히 당신의 품안에서 살고 싶어 ♥

I'm wondering what happen to you. You're making me so worried. Last Friday, i was sms-ing with you as usual, but then when after 8.20 pm, you didn't reply my message. I just leave it because i thought maybe your mum scolded you or anything. Then, Saturday you still didn't sms me but still, i leave it also because i thought you're testing me. So, i decide to wait until you make the move like everytime you'll do. On Sunday morning, i still haven't receive your text. I'm starting to worry. Then, i patiently wait for your message but you didn't sms me, but i told myself that maybe you got scolded by your mum about your bills getting higher so you don't want to text me. But if really, at least you should text me, right? As i'm freaking out, i text you yesterday night saying "Nicholas, can sms?", but you never reply and after that, i kept thinking what happened to you? Not replying my messages. Did i did anything wrong that made you angry and don't want to reply my message? Even if i really did, i guess you'll tell me because you promised yourself to me before. Or was it your mum confiscate your phone? then, you can give me a call using your house phone like last time you did, except it's not about your mum confiscating your phone. Anyways, what happened to you?? I'm worrying too much, am i? I kept thinking about you and wondering where are you? I really want to see you! Should i call you or wait until this Wednesday when school starts? It would be good if i call you because i won't worry too much if you picked up my call but i also scared that your mum is confiscating your phone so it will be risky to call you. *sad* I'm not really in the mood to do anything now. I'm just missing you too much and worrying about you. I kept thinking about it but i try so hard not to. Everytime i thought of it, i'll quickly find wood to touch and i really hope that it didn't happened to you. I really can imagine how will i react when i knew that happened to you. I really wish and hope that doesn't happened to you! I could die for you! I'm just thinking too much, i know but why do i keep thinking that will happen? Aargh~! I really need you by my side now! Missing you like this, i could go crazy! *calm down* Haiz~ well, so i guess now what i need to do is patiently wait until Wednesday when school starts and ask you. If i saw you, then i won't worry anymore. Please~ that nothing happen to you. I really don't want anything happen to you. *finger crossed* Please! :'(

Charlie St. Cloud ! :D

Yesterday, my mum booked 3 tickets to watch "Charlie St. Cloud" at Mid Valley, Golden Screen Cinemas on 9th of October, yesterday at 11.45 pm. Okay~ Firstly, i prepared myself, of course~

Then, we left to Mid Valley and went to the cinema level, 3rd level. There were so many people there! Later, we went to eat at a restaurant, erm.. kinda forgot the name of it but if i'm not mistaken, it's "Carls Junior". We decided to eat at there and honestly, the burgers are big! But still, it taste really delicious. *thumbs up* :DD

*the burger was nice but it has a lot of mayonnaise, i don't really like mayonnaise. >< *oh my, oh my. The fries was super delicious! ;D *this is my drink, coke! :)

Then, i wanted to buy popcorn. I buy popcorn also took quite some time. The queue was damn long and there's only 2 counters. Popcorn is a 100% must when i'm watching a movie. I cannot just sit there and watch a movie. I need something to eat. XD The movie took about one and a half hour. Rating? 9/10. It was so damn nice! I could watch the movie again. It was super duper worth it to watch. "Charlie St. Cloud" is a movie you shouldn't miss! Cigie, go watch ya. ;)

P/s : missing you terribly~ want you by my side right now! *sad*

♥ The Story of Us ♥

This is just another story bout boy meets girl, Boy leaves her, Crashes her world. This is the story bout me and you, and everything that we been through.

This ain't no fairytale kinda story babe, This was real. Never thought that one day I'd be able to tell you how I feel. Don't you remember that night, that saturday night, you took my hand and it felt so right And at that moment I told you about my dreams, everything I wanted us to be.

This is just another story bout boy meets girl, Boy leaves her, Crashes her world. This is the story bout me and you, and everything that we been through.

Summer passed quick, all was ending, And I could feel fall on my shoulders. I was waiting till September and I'd see your face but in that moment I knew it was over, And I remember that day, you moved away. Every little bit of my heart just sank. I remember what happened when I came home, I ran to my room and closed the door.

This is just another story bout boy meets girl, Boy leaves her, Crashes her world. This is the story bout me and you, and everything that we been through.

Ohhh, I was out of town one day, I saw you sittin on the porch, you looked at me, You said sorry that you did me wrong. You been thinking bout me all along, I said baby I don't even care, I'm just glad I'm here.

This is just another story bout boy meets girl, Boy loves her Rocks her world. This is the story bout me and you, and everything that we been through (x2)

That we've been through, woah ohh ~

Times Square with TC and Foo ~

Yesterday went out to Times Square with Chee Hung, Cigie and Foo. First, it started with me arriving school at around 7.40 am, saw Chee Hung and Foo at the pondok, next to the canteen. They were playing scrabble. Then, we walked here walked there, nothing to do much. Waited for Cigie until 10.15. *this is Foo Zhi Jian! Luckily he dressed correctly. xD Then, Cigie's mum brought 4 of us to Times Square. Next, we went to the cinema to see whether are there any movie we can watch, but we still can't make up our mind. So, we went for our lunch first. In choosing on what to eat and finding the place also took us some time. Finally, we made up our mind to eat at Old Town. :) *TJC's here but unfortunately this picture is missing someone. :( *me and Chee Hung shared this, forgot what is it called but obviously, this is a noodle. After that, we went to the toilet to... 'clean' up ourselves? xD *Cigie is helping Chee Hung to put a light make up on. After that, we went back to the cinema to choose what movie we want to watch. After a lot of turning around and discussing among ourselves, we finally chose "Sammy's Adventures : The Secret Passage". So we bought ticket for 1.30 pm but the time is still early so we did a bit shopping around to spend our time. Foo was so quiet the whole time. Lol~ he's the only boy. XD Then, we ended our 'shopping when the time is 1 pm and TJC got themself each a black headband with a ribbon on the side from Sinma. Cigie also got herself another couple key chain. :) Then, we went back to the cinema and bought popcorns, cause it's a must! ;) but our hall is not ready to be seated yet so we waited and of course, cam-whore is a must! :D *looking at the roller coaster makes me think back of the past and it's attracting me to play *first time wore this shoe, bought this from 'shoez obsession'.

When our hall is ready to be seated, we went in.

*This is the movie we chose. I know it look like a very childish movie but this is the only movie that is most suitable for us. *when walking into the hall *popcorn is a must! :DD The duration of the movie is around one and a half hour. Rating : 8/10. ^^ the movie was worth it to watch but maybe not to some of you guys. :) After that, next stop is to bowling! We played one game and guess who took the lead? It's me! Yay! XD Finish bowling, went to toilet again. Pity Foo~ xD

Then, we went back to Maluri by taking LRT and Monorail. Due to the time is still 5 pm, we went to Maluri Jusco. At that time, Foo is already back and left me, Cigie and Chee Hung. So, we went to take a rest at food court. By that time, everything was down. Like what Cigie said, "it started off with a good day but now it's ruined". Haiz~ i wouldn't know that this would happen. That's why i always think myself as the one whose born to cause trouble. :( I'm really sorry, i feel so bad for making you like this. I guess you're hating me right now, i'm sorry. But then, Cigie was so damn freaking 'high' because her leng zai called her. Wow! You should see how she reacted. She can't even breathe. XD when the time is around 6.15 pm, we changed into our pj clothes and walked back to school. Cigie went home first, followed by Chee Hung then only me.

Yesterday, i had lots of fun but not the 'ending' part. Still feeling kinda guilty right now. I feel that everything is my fault. Haiz~ So, went back, ate dinner then bath and sms with my dear as usual. He ended my day with a smile on my face. *smile*

I LOVE YOU , MY DEAR!

心裏想了想還是你..♥

Today went for St. John intersquad training, from 8 am until 12 pm. It started with me waking up at 7 am, supposingly i need to wake up at 6.30 but the night before i slept at 2 am so.. that's the reason i woke up late. After that, around 7.35 am, my mum fetch me to HQ where my training will be held. As soon i arrive there, i saw Jie Yin with our trainers(seniors), L/Cpl Eng and Pvt. Kong. Cigie and Jasmine can't go because their parents dun let. They kena scolding also. Cham~ After that, training was held as normal and it was not as tiring that i would expect it would be. Honestly, the training was quite fun, maybe it's because learning new stuff gua~ =) after that, training end at 12, me and Jie Yin went for our lunch. We decided to eat separately with seniors but we ended up eating at the same food court with them, so we sat at one table. I brought homemede fried rice, my maid cook de and Jie Yin bought chicken rice. In addition, i ordered a "bali" drink.

*my fried rice and bali, thumbs up!

*Jie Yin's chicken rice(obviously her's is more nicer than mine) xD

*Jie Yin with her soya bean

After finished our lunch, we went to Queens Park PHD because Jie Yin want to order St. John name tag. Senior ask us to arrive back HQ before 1 am and since the time was still 12.40, we walk around Carrefour to spend our time and one more, becasue got air-cond! xD Then we went to Shell petrol station and we bought sweets! X) Later, went back to HQ and ready for first aid course. Form 1 and form 2 are starting to arrive, and until 2.10, first aid course started. Basically we learn CPR, choking, transport, recovery position and bandaging. It's like what i learn last year, just a few changes. At 4, Jie Yin went back because at 4.15 she got tuition so after that, i'm the only Form 2 NC. =(

*Thivian and Zhen Tyian

The first aid course finished at 5 pm. My mum and aunt came and fetch me go home. Did some cam-whore in the car.

*the tired me~

Today was not as tiring that i would expect it would be~ ;D

P/s : 我知道我不會再孤單. ;DD