Practically, i have nothing to say much, just about what happen yesterday?

Not in the mood, trying to hide this kind of emotion but i guess i failed. =(

It's kinda hurting seeing you like this, but i dun want to tell you.

I know the best thing is to tell you but i'm just scared.

Maybe scared of starting a fight with you? Haiz~

I feel so bad doing like this to you.

I know you already told me that a lot if times and i know you will understand but there's like a force pushing me not to tell you.

But i guess my mood is much better now.

At least i still can smile and be the 'me' back. =)

Ok, i need to get ready go school jor.

Hope today will be a good day. *smile*

P/s : Thank you for your care. =)

영원히 내 남편을 사랑 해요! ♥

Without you, it's painful in my heart and tears everywhere as i think of you. I can really feel that i'm dying in the inside. I'm waiting for this moment patiently, as all of this sadness will be over. The tears won't be rolling down my face anymore and a real sweet smile will appear on my face. *smile* I'm now in a much better mood than before this. The whole time, i'm just pretending to be happy, try to keep a smile on my face but in my heart, it's having its sad time. Pretending to be happy when i'm already dying inside, it's hard but, watching you like this, it's harder. I'm not really daring enough to tell you this. I just love you too deeply and that's the reason why i'll get that kind of feeling very easily. I tried many times to control this kind of feeling of mine. I don't wanna make this feeling too obvious so everytime i need to keep a happy face but my heart appears to be a sad face. Sometimes, it can be really hard because in the inside, i'm just a small little scared girl. Not brave enough to do what i need to do. Now i'm glad that all of these is officially over. Everything is currently back to normal and i didn't think too much about it. Just that i still think of another thing that i shouldn't think of. I realize that i'm just really scared of that happening. I keep imagining it but i'm trying really hard not to. I need to have faith and trust in him. I need to have these in me to keep me from becoming so scared. I need to trust him! Finally, good things happened! Hope tomorrow school will be alright. =) P/s : 我知道我错了。=) P/s 2 : We've already tie a knot in our heart and that makes us 丈夫和妻子。我会永远爱你！;D

The days feel like years when i'm alone~

I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were, yeah All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you

still online-ing because just couldn't sleep. missing him terribly~! >< wonder what his doing. sleeping? =]

我们的明天快不快乐？

Now is around 1:30 am on 23rd of September and i'm still online-ing. I know i should spend my time wisely either to do my sejarah folio which i need to pass up by this Friday and i still got lot more to go, or i could sleep but i use my time online-ing because i'm not in the mood to do anything else except to online. I'm unhappy? Yeah~ i just couldn't sleep. I really non-stop thinking about him. Is this what they call i too madly in love with him?? =] all i can do is keep thinking about him and not feel sleepy at all. I keep listening to a song, 半情歌 by 元若藍. It's a really nice song though. =) it's basically an after couples break up song. xP i keep imagining things that will and will not happen. Haiz~ and my friend keep asking me to stop thinking about it. Ok~ now all i can say is.. we're fighting with each other? hmm~ maybe gua, sort of. Lucky my friend is there for me, if not, now i'll be sitting here crying but what they it's true though. It does make sense, 100% make sense! I really want to thank you JTC for cheering me up. You guys are friends that everybody wish to have, do you guys know that?? and i'm really lucky to have friends like you guys! :D you guys do make me realize something that i couldn't realize it myself. Thank you so much! Friendship like this is really hard to find. =) Anyways, maybe what they say is right. I should be like that! ;) P/s : thank you for listening ya. You've been a very good big pig. X) P/s 2 : 我们的爱是不是唱一半的歌？='(

Missing you~

Now, the time is around 3:10 am on 19th of September and i'm still online-ing. xP

My dark circles are getting worse and i'm still staying up late. Haiz~

Playing Pet Society on Facebook. Addicted till i can't stop, i guess~ xD

Well, i just couldn't sleep, dunno why. That's why i spent my time by playing games and downloading songs because i'm trying to have more songs than Nicholas. "Nic, i'm gonna beat you!" *blek* xD

Well, there's also another motive why i want to blog. ;D

Today is Nicholas and my 10th month anniversarry. Happy? Ya~ Duh~ xD

I think back and i realize time past really fast

Since 19th of November 2009, until now, our relationship is still strong. Well, sometimes is not. xP

Anyways, we've been through a lot of stuffs together throughout these 10 months.

Happy and sweet moments? Unforgettable! Everytime thought of these moments, there'll be a smile on my face, or i could even laugh about it. :DD

Sad and bitter moments? Erm.. some are unforgettable eventhough i tried really hard to forget it. These moments did teach us what is right and what is wrong. Moments that made us learn from our mistake but still, there are those mistakes we'll keep repeating it. Well, these are the moments that also made our relationship stronger but somehow, there are times our relationship is a bit nearly to break up level. Haiz~ those moments are still clearly remembered in my mind. =(

Ok. Nevermind, let me stop talking about that and i'll do the best to keep this relationship strong, keep this relationship going on. =)

We've promise each other a lot of things and yet, promise is ALWAYS a promise. I'll keep my promise and you'll keep yours. Remember o~! ^^

Anyways, all that matters right now is that i have you and we only love each other.

Happy 10th month Anniversarry, dear!

I love you!

P/s : The more i think about it, the more scared i am. I tried really hard not to think of it but everytime i see her, my heart is all messed up, like all my trust in you is totally gone. ='(

School finally reopen! :DD Yesterday went to school, extremely happy get to see him after the long and boring holidays without him. xD Well, yesterday started with a good beginning but as time past, i'm not really in a good mood, neither is he. =( I bet he's angry because he did show his anger. On me? >< Well, but after that we're back to normal. As usual? That's a good thing, right? Haiz~ =3 Ok~ skip that, because i have nothing much to say about that but i really want to say "sorry" to him. SORRY. =) Actually, today there's school replacement, but i didn't attend school today. Sorry ya guys~ ^^" me and Cigie planned together de, or should i say we 'pakat'? xD We're also not in the mood to go to school today. xP Our school today is celebrating something like Hari Raya, where got jamuan de and also "Penutupan Bulan Kemerdekaan". There's also 1 Malaysia event and that's why teacher encourage us to wear traditional clothes. So, that means no study but still, that didn't encourage us to attend school. xD Ok. That's all for now. =) Tata~ ^^

P/s : miss you eventhough yesterday saw you already. ^^"

P/s 2 : i still feel so bad. I'm still trying not to get too close to him. Thank you for reminding me that i'm a jerk and ask me to stop to be like one.

Sorry didn't blog anything for almost a week. I got many things to post about, actually. It's just that i'm too lazy. xD School's gonna start in 3 more days and i haven't even finish my Sejarah folio. I just dunno how to start and practically, dun really know how to do. I'm excited and eager for school to start because i can see him again but i still got a lot more work to do! Haiz~ i did a bit already but still need to gambateh to finish it off! Still got homework haven't finish so i think now i need to focus is my homeworks! >< Life is like a box of chocolate. Fought and mend back, fought and mend back. =) Well, promise is always a promise! Trust me, i'm gonna hold on to this promise forever! :DD make sure you too o! ;)

Well, this will be just a short update about the present that i gave him for his birthday. On last Thursday, we went to JJ, including him. It was one day before his birthday. Let's just make it short, i bought a basketball for HIM. ;) I bought another box to put the basketball in so that he wouldn't know what present exactly it is. =) I gave him on Thursday because i scared Friday got spotcheck so i gave him earlier one day. But during school time, i gave my class teacher to help me keep first. Thank you, teacher! :DD So, before school time, i told him that the present is for him and i guess his saying thank you way is by hugging me. ;DD I felt so 'high' after that, though i didn't showed it out. xD The next day, he say he like the present very much wo~ well, glad he like the present, of course~ =) I also did bought a present for my dear friend, Tomato. I bought her a pair of couple key chain. ;D

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On 4th of September, i, Jasmine and Chee Hung went to Cigie's house to celebrate Chee Hung's birthday which is actually on 13th of September, but we celebrate earlier because Cigie will be going holiday but dunno when, so it's actually an advance birthday. =) It started with me waking up at 8 am, i dunno why i woke up so early and i just couldn't sleep back. Oh well, i just lie on the bed for almost an hour and after that, watch TV and later i got myself ready.

Around 10.30 am, i left my house and my aunt brought me to school where Jasmine picked me and Chee Hung up to Cigie's house. When we arrived, i were in the guest room with Chee Hung while Jasmine and Cigie put the cake into the refrigerator. The cake is a surprise for Chee Hung. ;) After that, JTJC spent their time in the guest room cam-whoring, chit-chatting, online-ing and sms-ing. ;D

*we're supposed to make JTJC, but i guess mine and Jasmine's J doesn't look like one. xD

We also did prank Nicholas by pretending that Jasmine is my mum but we failed, because Jasmine just couldn't resist and just burst into laughter. Well, to admit, i also burst into laughter. xD At 12.30 pm, we had our lunch. Cigie's mum bought us chicken rice and it was delicious! *thumbs up* Thank you ya! =) After eating our lunch, me and Chee Hung were back to the guest room and she online while i cam-whore and sms with him, while Jasmine and Cigie prepare the cake for Chee Hung.

After they're done, i brought her to the dining room with her eyes closed and covered. When she's in the position, her eyes is opened and we sang "Happy Birthday" song to her.

*happy?? surprised?? :DD *make a wish~ *blow candle time! xD *Happy Advance Birthday Tomato JTJC Forever

We had fun eating the Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence cake and we were so full after that! Next, we went karaoke in Cigie's karaoke room. We also did had so much fun singing too~ ;D After finish karaoke-ing, we "lepak-lepak" around the house and we went out to the Pasar Ramadhan that is very near to Cigie's house. Before we even start the "shopping", my mum called and say that she arrive Cigie's house already. I was like *shit!* so, we did a quick one, around 10-15 minutes and quickly went back to Cigie's house and my mum was there waiting. Sorry everybody! ^^" So, around 5.30 pm, i went back and it was "bye bye" time for me lu~

But still, i had fun that day. It was a JTJC day! ;DD

P/s : Nice talking to you just now. I really miss you so much! =)

1st September 2010!

Well, i'm glad i can officially blog again. =) I have nothing much in mind though. Today is 1st of September in the year 2010, and in another 2 more days would be 3rd of September, my dear punya birthday. ^^ what gift will i give him?? making a surprise for him?? buying a BIG birthday cake for him and celebrate?? what will i do on his birthday?? Hmm~ i cannot tell here, because i guess he's gonna read my blog before his birthday and what will i do, i should keep it as a secret. *shh* ;D p/s : thank you, Cigie, for helping me. Must 'ma fan' YOU lor~ xD ________________________________________________________

Well, my exam had passed already and i'm quite satisfied with my marks this time, but still, my mum is not. She say that my marks is still not good enough and that i need to get 80 and above for every subject. Haiz~ that means i need to study harder!

Practically, i've already planned my target. NO D's and E's for my final exam this year. It would be better if there are no C's too.

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JTJC!

JTJC has been created since 27th August 2010. Eventhough JJC is still in our memories but, it's better because someone new has join into our "group". We welcome her into our "group" and i hope this friendship of ours will never end even if we have LOVE. All over, i'm really happy that i'm in the "group" and glad that i have such good friends to support me all the time and also someone trustworthy to share secret with. ^^

JTJC's Destiny Will Never Change!